In The Pain There Is Healing

I'm hanging on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
And I'm hanging onto the words you say
You said that I will be okay.

Welcome to my thoughts. Enter at your own risk.

With every birthday, every year gone by, we are all that little bit closer to death. To the inevitable end. We all lead such different lives, are such different people but that is the one thing which we all have in common. The common denominator in this fuzz which we call ‘life’. We still remain different until we reach that point. We will not all meet our end in the same way but we will all meet our end someday. Someday, we’ll find our true loves again. We will find the children we lost, the children we never got to know, the friends we let go of too soon, the people who ignored us at school, the family who hold that part of us which has been missing since they left your side. 

You see, at this point where life meets death - the point which doesn’t have a specific name - nothing else matters. It didn’t matter that you failed that test or that you left the house two days in a row without make up. It’s all so trivial. All of that ‘stuff’ just melts when you reach the point on your journey where you have to make the biggest decision that you will ever make: do I continue to where there is no such thing as worry and stress and fear or do I go back? Back to what I know? Back to where they will miss me? Back to the monotony? Back to what you know?

Which do you choose?

We need others physically, emotionally, intellectually; we need them if we are to know anything, even ourselves.

—The Four Loves (Introduction) - C.S. Lewis.

I want to tear myself from this place, from this reality, rise up like a cloud and float away, melt into this humid summer night and dissolve somewhere far, over the hills. But I am here, my legs blocks of concrete, my lungs empty of air, my throat burning. There will be no floating away.

—Khaled Hosseini, The Kite Runner (via pavorst)

Why is my mind so broken?

Maybe not everything (or everyone) can be fixed.

Maybe I’ll be broken forever.


However long that may be…

Maybe we aren’t good for each other. Maybe we just think we’re helping eachother when Infact we only bring eachother down. But somehow I can’t quite seem to let you go.

My Grandfather’s been dead for all these years, but if you lifted my skull, by God, in the convolutions of my brain you’d find the big ridges of his thumbprint.

—Ray Bradbury, Fahrenheit 451 (via evocative-eloquence)

It’s a little off-putting when you take an egg out of the carton and there’s a feather stuck to it and your little sister screams that you should have cracked it because ‘what if there was a chick in it?’

It’s been a weird morning. 

Dairy makes me very ill. Why, oh why, do I put my body through this?!

When will I learn to stop getting worked up over things that, on a larger scale, don’t actually matter.
Tests make me ill. Eurgh.